Tag Archives: Dedicant journal

Profound Love, Forgiveness & Change, the Purest Forms of Suffering

That sunny warm Beltaine deep in the marshes, when I made my first oath to the gods, the spirits, and the ancestors, sticky with witch’s ointment and sweat from hiking–a combination that stirred up potent visions–I prayed to Aenghus with all my might that he may bring someone into my life to whom I might […]

Meditation & Wood- and Bone-Work

What does it mean to “take the time”? It’s something I’ve been struggling with immensely of late. I’ve written before of how I need to write to turn inwards, clear my head, and function at my best–so why is my hand-written journal and grimoire not filled daily with poetry written from tree-limbs under leaf-canopy shade […]

Meditation & Enlightenment

I found meditation difficult this week. It felt easier to trance out through yoga and exercise and reading than to “just sit.” There were so many things I was hiding from myself, so many tensions in my soul that I did not want to face in the stillness of zazen. In a talk on shikantaza (Hakuun Ryōko Yasutani: “Shikantaza is […]

Meditation and Piety

In the past two months, I’ve begun exploring yoga. Exercise has always been an incredible method of trance for me, and it has always been something that I have regularly devoted myself to (though when I was very little I tended to tell people, “I’m not athletic, but I like to read!”), whether it’s been ballet, […]